Mishmash

Im actually on the brink of lassitude but the thoughts of you keep rumbling on my mind which still keep me adept. You're inexplicable, and this perhaps is one iota of a reason why is it so hard to get you off my mind. I like enigmatic people because my curiosity ignites. I want to discover the mystery in you. I want to know you more. And i want you!

I'm not a showy person, the reason why I label myself as part of the norms (the usual/ordinary i mean). A few friends would know the real persona in me. I'm not a "pretentious" person, it's just that, i don't show all of me. Mystery ignites one's drive to know someone. You tend to approach or talk to someone, make a good conversation, and voila! you're like a cryptologist who just deciphered a piece of mystery to one's life. It's fun to experience that by a mere conversation, you found out something about the person. Like a mere adventure, that's what i want.

Yeah, right! Fine! This blog is going nowhere. I'm just actually preoccupied by my thoughts of "him" plus boredom. I'm currently @ work @ exactly 4:12 am, but i already finished my job so i'm free to surf information super highway or better known as internet.


Note: mishmash, meaning mixture. The author is preoccupied with a mixture of different thoughts while writing this weblog.

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